Loneliness

The end reality of loneliness...
this is dedicated to my beloved fallen uncles - Firoz Akhter & Shahidul Molla

The end comes when we no longer talk with ourselves. It is the end of genuine thinking and the beginning of the final loneliness.

-Edward Gibbon

Nothing left to be hurt by ...

BY NUSRAT UCHIHA

There`s nothing of me to be hurt anymore, I`ve been torn apart...

I always knew I was supposed to be a curse. I always knew I would fall alone. At the end of the day, no one came to ask me whether I was ok. To some I[`ve] become a lesson and a person they never want to become and to some [a] stranger, and to some just an orphan who can`t do anything right. Now I am that girl. The girl who seemed unbreakable is finally starting to break, the one who seemed so strong is crumbling apart, the one who always laughs it off is constantly crying, the girl who would never give up, finally quit trying. I just wish there was someone who would come and hug me and tell me they are really there, but the only one who did that was Allah. Its true as Allah says, you come alone and you will go alone, I guess keeping all the pain inside is the best I can do.

A parable of ones life so hurt for caring

How much can one truly endure?

This tepid, tremulous life of couture.

When truly society has become the trappings of this accursed life,

all the while slicing through me with a knife.

O` our loved ones do we love,

but they give us the cold shoulder and shove.

How we lament the old simple days,

where ideas and respect would blaze.

The youth today are of no hope,

not asleep are they but in a coma of dope.

The calamities of this world, befall for 2 things:

the hands that reap and the tongue that lashes and stings.

It is said - a tongue has no bones but its already strong enough to break a heart.

It is this heart broken soul who has been left by his beloved torn apart.

My cursed beloved is the chaos serpent snake Apep,

will she be slayed like it was by the Heliopolis cat of Ra as kept?

For she is my greatest love I take,

yet ye shares the deceptive enmitous qualities of the accursed snake.

For the vile venom that spews out of her mouth crowing,

ye doesn`t realize the destruction one is sowing.

The lies, deception, disrespect & betrayal she joins upon,

leaves me weak and unable to hang on.

Alas, let her and her circle be of ignorant bliss,

as I depart them with a parting kiss.

To your life and mine, 

as I take my rightful place above the line.

— RSA

At the end of the day, all we have is who we are ...

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Prayer to my Lord - hear my cries

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Ya Wadud! ~ Oh Beloved, make the veils on my heart to vanish, hear my cry and open my heart with Your Light. Oh You Who loves those whose hearts are broken for Your sake ~ You are Allah, Our Lord.

Never have I felt this alone, this vast emptiness, this distant, a cast off with mortal danger at every turn from the very people you give your heart out to. It is a shame, the very same people instigate, mitigate, slander & plot against you for your downfall when in fact you pray for all their well-being. It is the selfish nature of man to always receive and receive but never to give one iota. Truly as the great Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said, we are certainly the ghuraba (the strangers) to the disbelievers, so we must distance our selves from the rest.

As Ibrahim al-Nakha`i said, “Those who were destroyed before you were destroyed due to three traits – excess in speech, excess in food, and excess in sleep.” - RSA

The vast emptiness of being alone...

Never have I felt this alone, this vast emptiness, this distant, a cast off with mortal danger at every turn from the very people you give your heart out to. It is a shame, the very same people instigate, mitigate, slander & plot against you for your downfall when in fact you pray for all their well-being. It is the selfish nature of man to always receive and receive but never to give one iota. Truly as the great Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said, we are certainly the ghuraba (the strangers) to the disbelievers, so we must distance our selves from the rest.

As Ibrahim al-Nakha`i said, “Those who were destroyed before you were destroyed due to three traits – excess in speech, excess in food, and excess in sleep.”

Ya Wadud! ~ Oh Beloved, make the veils on my heart to vanish, hear my cry and open my heart with Your Light. Oh You Who loves those whose hearts are broken for Your sake ~ You are Allah, Our Lord. (RSA)

The end reality of loneliness...

this is dedicated to my beloved uncles - Firoz Akhter & Shahidul Molla

The end comes when we no longer talk with ourselves. It is the end of genuine thinking and the beginning of the final loneliness.

-Edward Gibbon

The love that binds us together with loneliness

Here I sit between my brother the mountain and my sister the sea. We three are one in loneliness, and the love that binds us together is deep and strong and strange.

-Kahlil Gibran

Loneliness...

Loneliness is never more cruel than when it is felt in close propinquity with someone who has ceased to communicate

-Germaine Greer

The beauty being along side alone

The soul that sees beauty may sometimes walk alone.

-Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Alone...

If all the world hated you, and believed you wicked, while your own conscience approved you, and absolved you from guilt, you would not be without friends.

-Patrick Branwell Bront