The ever deepening hidden facets to my prodigious 'la familia'

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Its just a surprising astonishment that where I consider family being the single most thing that`s supposed to bring warmth to the heart and soul is however in reality one of the most destructive elements a person can be exposed to, that causes you to rot from within. The persistent denial, anger, persecution, back-biting and constant disrespect takes its toll on a person when the whole family wages war on them together. There is no escape, no respite despite keeping up appearances when in reality it is utter futile.

The greatest thing now is the amount of disrespect exacted by everyone upon myself. Respect all throughout history was a thing not attainable but commanded or ordained. From the greatest kings to empires, respect existed in all forms as a guide to society. From the older generations to our parents, respect runs high in esteem. American culture at the core as well values respect. But it is the new immigrant class of people coming to this country that trashes the name of respect. To them, respect is people who have the latest iphones, apple computers, mercedes & bmw cars, flashy and dodgy clothes, squabbling who has more wealth or high-paying jobs, having personalities un-becoming of a gentleman from behavior, to mannerisms and hairstyles not commonly seen or accepted by society in general. To them, the pleasures of this world are respect to them. How vain they must be and think that they don`t see the past lessons of history people have endured.

Now, throughout history we are told of 'family' by the greats like Desmond Tutu who said "You don`t choose your family. They are God`s gift to you, as you are to them" or like a Spanish proverb that states that 'an ounce of blood is worth more than a pound of friendship.' However, these statement only make sense to the few utopian families in existence but not all. I can attest to that personally. What good are they to you when they are of in ignorance bliss.

Sooner or later, the burden will eventually break my will which to this day has been shaky at best considering the life events I`m experiencing at this point. Down the road, only time will tell how the story will unfold. The greats in my family have all long passed away, not having to endure the grueling petulance of life currently in our society. Looking back from afar, it is a great shame what society has become. No one learns the lessons of history, for the mighty empires who stood high and fell. For the mighty advancements we contemplate and currently have, there is no respite from the fact we are more at war with our fellow man and sunk into the pleasures of this world as nothing is beyond it.

It surely is a shame, I as the only person share this view and truly see the light at the end of tunnel and can`t relay my message to my family members. I feel more alone and isolated now than anytime in my life. No one can understand that life right now is just mere smoke and mirrors and play has played into it. It surely is tough being unique and loyal to my core values and beliefs as I will never abandon under any threat until my last dying breath. As is in our religion, as commanded by God to the Prophets to their people - to just deliver the message to the people and ultimately it is up the people and God himself to give them the guidance unto the right path.

'Be in the world, but not of it.' For in the end, you are eternally alone before you are born and eternally alone when you die and meet your Creator...

-RA, SA, RSA